watch. since 28/09/03.

With the new timetable out Tuesdays are so horrendous! They end so late! And the sequence of lessons seem to build up into the ultimate climax of life-sucking energy. AH! But there's good news today. As I sit here in the school library, and heard the news, it was like spiritual CPR. Lit lectures and tutorial are cancelled - GP too (because Mr Nathan isn't in school). SCHOOL ENDS IN ONE PERIOD. ONE. I will be free again! Free from the shackles of school!!! (: A new life begins after school, really. I'm only a part-time student.

("A"-Levels in 7 months, some things got to go; byebye to lepac-ing)

God has blessed during Easter. I've met so many cool new people and have been blessed with grace that I do not deserve. Yesterday was spent planning the war, today more preparations will be made. Tomorrow, we charge. Ha ha! I'm going to get home, throw my uniform in the washer, pick up my sword and armour - and I'm going out there to take some ground.

Life starts in one period's time.

Ha ha I'll study hard once I get back from the battlefield.

From the books to conquering back to the books.

Fear more for wisdom.

walk on.

learn from what you've done.

don't dwell on it.

it's never too hard; to take the next step.

so pick yourself up.

walk on.

walk on.

walk on.

be better.

character.

Psalm 139:1 O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
 2 You know my sitting down and my rising up;
         You understand my thought afar off.
 3 You comprehend my path and my lying down,
         And are acquainted with all my ways.
 4 For there is not a word on my tongue,
         But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
 5 You have hedged me behind and before,
         And laid Your hand upon me.
 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
         It is high, I cannot attain it.
         
 7 Where can I go from Your Spirit?
         Or where can I flee from Your presence?
 8 If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
         If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
 9 If I take the wings of the morning,
         And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
 10 Even there Your hand shall lead me,
         And Your right hand shall hold me.
 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall^[a] on me,”
         Even the night shall be light about me;
 12 Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
         But the night shines as the day;
         The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
         
 13 For You formed my inward parts;
         You covered me in my mother’s womb.
 14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;^[b]
         Marvelous are Your works,
         And that my soul knows very well.
 15 My frame was not hidden from You,
         When I was made in secret,
         And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
 16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
         And in Your book they all were written,
         The days fashioned for me,
         When as yet there were none of them.
         
 17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
         How great is the sum of them!
 18 If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
         When I awake, I am still with You.
         
 19 Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
         Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
 20 For they speak against You wickedly;
         Your enemies take Your name in vain.^[c]
 21 Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You?
         And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
 22 I hate them with perfect hatred;
         I count them my enemies.
         
 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
         Try me, and know my anxieties;
 24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
         And lead me in the way everlasting.

 

I must change. How can.. How can..

One more day till the end of block tests. I'm happy, and excited. The weekend is going to be AMAZING.

PEOPLE, BASS, STUDIES - HARD WORK.

Oh and Michelle, Adele, and Arvin came back to school today. Oh oh, wait Arvin teaches in school now. Well I think graduating is cool. The future seems bright.. (:

Pray more..

Fast more...

Study more..

STAND in the face of it all...

Oh man the exams are going to get tougher. Thank God for Daniel Tay - he helped me for ECONOMICS the night before. Thanks so much! I'm still not there yet, but I think I'll get better one day. LITERATURE and HISTORY are up tomorrow. 3 days to the end of block tests. 4 days to EASTER. Easter... It's going to take a step of faith! I've been thinking how funny it is. It's so hard to take time off to study. When you have a purpose in your life, when you have a VISION to live and die for; your perception of things just change. I can't wait for exams to end not so I can relax and lepac. But I want to kill that bit of laziness that's in me, I want to jump right back into my studies once the block tests are done. I want to be a better leader. I want to have wisdom. I want to have love. I want to see revival. I want to see the people around me grow with me. I want to see myself, different. I want to see, what God sees. I want to be, what I see; when what I see is what God sees.

"And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.

For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."

When was the last time you saw yourself doing something you wanted to do? When was the last time you lived for something you wanted? I know one thing I want.

And closer to You, I draw near.

FAITH! BEYOND ALL REASON AND UNDERSTANDING.

p.s. Pride & Prejudice is such a romantic show, sial. Back off to studying, I am. And I'm quite sure, it's always the exams that get me going somehow.

God's presence was electrifying. His Word entered right into my soul, refreshing my spirit.

I refuse to remain downcast. I must overcome.

My dreams shall come alive again.

Whenever I try to study.. Something, if not everything goes wrong. Oh God. Please save my soul..

 

"Don't give up. Don't give up. Make tomorrow better."

And on the last minute before tomorrow. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! (:

I haven't posted links for ages. So I decided to link up my OGMs. BUT I realised the only guy that has a blog is Ronald - unless the rest of them have some secret blog going on somewhere else. Ha.

OH HAVE I TOLD YOU WHAT A WONDERFUL BUNCH THEY ARE?!

"THEY'RE A WONDERFUL BUNCH." Man, it's fun hanging around with them. (:

Well, everyone's busy off studying for the block tests now. They're all on the edge of entering maniacal. It's going to be a real stretch from now all the way till then. With all faith - the breakthrough will come to the zone and C1 while I attempt to embark on the block challenge too! Last week was a miracle that I never deserved, the beauty of it all! C1 brokethrough, and I don't believe it's going to end there. I've come to terms, that I'm not going to be able to do it on my own. And I thank God for all the strength; to overcome. End-time BS was also awesome! Winson and Zi Yan came along with me, it was absolutely mind-blowing man! I'm not going to miss out on any sessions - no doubt about it! Everything just fits so perfectly after how Pastor How shared everything!

| - GT - | - Blackout - | - DOTL - |

I just realised - how school is going to be real exciting from here on. Block tests. Mid-Years. Prelims. "A"-Levels. Speaking of which, I'm feeling really nervous about the coming "A"-Level results. Even though I'm not taking any results this time round, I'm feeling the pinch for all the ex-MJCians: Raharjo, Clarence, 06A101, and beloved Pan, Alvin, Matthew, plus the many other people taking their results.

It's awesome what Pastor How shared about. HOGC2.0. As we enter 2.0, all our lives will be changed as well. This is the beginning. The beginnings of leadership. God's taking me, breaking me, moulding me. I shouldn't be downcast in this time. Have faith. Hebrews 11:6. Have faith. Have faith. Have faith. Like how Charleston, Roy, and Yassy have faith. I need to reach the new faith-scape. I want to have the faith like they do; faith to overcome the things that they face. Thank God for leaders!

I know what I want,
to look back one day at this time,
and be glad I never gave up.

The school around me is frowning. I think I should be absolutely thrashed as well. LiteraturejustdoesnotseemtomakeanysenseandIthinkIjustblewitonmylatestmathtestandohhowthougheconomicsandhistoryhavebecomeaswell. It seems everyone is laughing about it. The difference? I'm not faking a smile thinking everything's going to be alright. I'm smiling because I know everything's gonna be alright. (:

 

"Remember this feeling. Where the noise doesn't plague you. Where you can think clear and straight. Where you can hear the gentle sound of thunder. REMEMBER IT.

Because if I lose it again.. I won't. But this is my reference point. A glimpse of a renewed mind."

 Psalm25:14 "The secret of the LORD is with those who fear Him,
         And He will show them His covenant."

Draw me closer.

Love to Live to Love
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Love to Live to Love
Love to Learn to Love
Love to Lead to Love

Love to Live to Love
Love to Learn to Love
Love to Lead to Love